pretentiousgarbage said: WAIT IS IT YOUR BIRTHDAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
NAH BAE BUT IT WAS MY BDAY SEPT 9TH IT IS JUST KICKIN IN NOW. SO WEIRD
I was wrong. Today was poopy through and through. All bad, except for dinner. Dinner was good. I baked pumpkin bread.
Anonymous said: If you could make yourself happy, what would you want?
Wow, what a question. I feel like I should really think this one through. Is this assuming that I can’t make myself happy? I don’t mean to argue semantics. Unfortunately, I’ve always considered myself a believer in the “the wise man grows happiness from under his feet” mantra, but I haven’t been doing a very good job at that.
That being said, what would I want? This is such a weirdly phrased question. I feel like happiness is based more on action than desire. I would want to be able to wake up each morning and feel content. I would want more drive, more ability to get through things easily as opposed to struggling through things. I’d want to be able to feel comfortable with myself, enough so that I could creep out of my comfort zone more often and learn. I would want to pursue my passions more thoroughly and not half-ass anything. I’d also want to not have anymore digestive problems, they’re no fun.
Most importantly, though, I’d want to stop wanting other people. I would love to be able to rely only on myself for happiness. I don’t think it’s in the cards for me. Sometimes I feel like I’m embedded amongst people. It’s in my blood. So I guess if I could make myself happy, that’s what I would want.